Academic Pursuits

There needs to be a sloughing off - I have many things to get rid of. The first of which is this nagging sensation that working towards whatever goal gets me a promotion and a job where I'm in charge of anything pertaining to a corporate project is a worthwhile endeavor.

I've been gone from academia too long. I want to throw myself into something that is solely aimed at my own personal growth. I'm just not driven by saving corporations time and money, especially since I'll never see any of that return on my investment. But spending my time researching and writing, teaching and fostering discussions? I'm not so idealistic that I don't know about the unique challenges that can arise from working in academia. But the whole thing just seems to have a purpose the way that other industries simply don't.

And frankly I'm sick of working while under constant task-based micro-management. Sure, have general rules or guidelines that I can interpret and work around creatively. But leave me the fuck alone to do my job. I want to be hired on the basis of my intelligence and be treated like it.

And while I'm at it, I want everyone who's going to bring drama into my life to leave me the fuck alone. I'm not 21 anymore, the thought of sitting on my couch alone on a Saturday watching reruns is totally un-terrifying.

GRE, here I come, you piece of shit standardized test.

I'm in love.

With a bungalow built in 1910.

It will be mine. Oh yes, it will be mine.

I spent the weekend looking at craigslist postings for apartments. And I just don't think I can do it again. I'm sure landlords are people with feelings and whatnot, but I think they suck on principle. I throw my money away each month so they can watch their investment pay for itself. Tricky bastards. Next time I enter into a lease, I'm going to be the one getting the checks. Fuck that.

I'm sure there are other properties. I could settle for a loft with lake views.

Best part about it? The city of Oakland gives you a deferred loan if you're a first time home buyer. So I actually can afford a place that isn't hideous. And do whatever I want to it.

If I end up buying a house, I'm totally throwing the best housewarming party ever. And I'm registering at Crate & Barrel. Fuck that, my house will cost as much as raising a kid to like age 7 or some shit. Without contributing to overpopulation. I deserve some free shit for that kind of accomplishment.